monday's chemo treatment was delayed because my blood counts were too low, especially my platelets. i have a follow-up appointment in nashville on tuesday, then the chemo on thursday. my platelet count should be good enough by then. i had planned the rest of my treatments out before this delay and it looked like i would finish around july 28th. with this delay we are up into august now. i think i jinxed it by planning things out. it kinda makes me mad because i was prepared to get the treatment. that morning ritual of waking up early and not being able to go back to sleep. staring at the alarm clock and counting down the minutes i have left before i have to get up. then taking a shower and eating some mcdonald's breakfast that dad picked up. the sausage biscuit tastes good but my stomach starts to turn after that. i take my morning pills. pack up my backpack and head to the hospital for "chemo hell". as i lay in the hospital bed, they access my port-a-cath and draw some blood. i am ready for the IV to start when they come in and tell me i can't get chemo because of my blood counts. that's how it goes.

i didn't do anything but sleep yesterday. i think today will be most of the same. i just feel rundown and tired. the pollen outside is definitely in full effect. i have been sneezing like crazy and my eyes itching. i think it is best to just stay inside, eat well, and rest up, hoping my counts start to rise.

first of all i would like to thank the people that posted comments on my last entry. one of the comments got accidently deleted. sorry for that. the comments help me see who my audience is, which is nice.

the last couple of days have been pretty good. i had a dr.'s appt. on monday. they said my blood counts were holding up ok. thank god no need for a blood transfusion. just precautionary antibiotics. i made it to work on monday and tuesday which felt great. it was good to see everyone and catch up on some things. today is not going that great. my stomach is giving me quite a bit of trouble. i'm not sure why. i think the chemo could be having some effects. i haven't been right since that last treatment. my appetite has been good. i can't eat a lot at once, but small meals all day seem to work.

today i have to go get a test done on my heart. the adrianmycin part of the chemo can have bad effects on the heart. they just want to make sure that nothing abnormal is going on. i have had the test twice before and it really isn't a big deal. i don't anticipate any problems.

i have been slacking off the past couple of weeks. i really just kind of forgot to post anything. sorry to the few of you out there that are actually following along with my progress. i feel like i am getting closer to completion. i have a total of 6 more treatments. 4 of them are inpatient, 2 outpatient. i feel pretty good today. the fatigue doesn't seem to be quite as bad as yesterday. there are no treatments scheduled for next week, so i will have that time to rest up. i do have a couple doctors appointments though. i am hoping to make it in to work at least a coupe days and maybe make it to a legends baseball game if i feel up to it. my bloodcounts are usually the lowest 10 days after a treatment so hopefully i will not be too weak.

well, it is the weekend so hopefully megan and i will do something fun. i am bored to death of the daytime tv. the weather is decent so maybe i'll go outside for a while...

oh, i just learned how to enable comments on my blog, so readers can now leave me comments. please be nice and don't use any bad language. if this gets ugly or out of hand i will just disable this feature. i also changed the look and feel of my blog. hope you like it better...

i know it has been a while since my last post. i have not had chemo since then. my blood counts have still not been where they need to be. mainly i think it is my platelet count that is still too low. i have felt pretty good for the last week. i have just been really tired. i have been taking it easy and sleeping a lot. today my left ear is stopped up. i don't know what casued it to get that way. i hope it is not infection. my lungs have felt kind of sore the last few days. i have not been coughing up anything, so i am confident that i don't have an infection. it just worries me sometimes.

i am supposed to report to the hospital on monday for chemo. they have been pushing my treatments back because of my blood counts which is just stringing things out longer. in a way i'll be glad to go ahead and get it overwith asap. the biggest thing i hate about being in the hospital is not sleeping in my bed at home. i hate the hospital beds, along with the food and being hooked to an IV the entire stay.

anyway, today is derby day, so we'll be watching that later. i like Tapit and The Cliff's Edge but i wouldn't bet on them because i never pick the derby winner. megan has much better luck picking them.