i survived my 6th and final chemo treatment before surgery. i feel good. the treatments have left me tired and about 30 pounds lighter, but my appetite is making a huge come-back. with the appetite comes the energy. i had enough energy to work almost a full day today. it was good to get back in there. most likely i won't have to have a blood transfusion before surgery, but it is possible that i will need blood during the surgery. i found out that my blood type is A+. my parents have donated and the blood will be there if i need it. not much else is going on. i am just going to try to get as strong as i can before surgery.

well i made it through my 5th chemo treatment. i had to spend 3 nights in the hospital in order to make sure the chemo cleared my system. hopefully i won't get the nasty mouth sores that i had before. so i am looking ahead. i have one more treatment before my surgery. the doctors have said that i may need a blood transfusion before the surgery to get my levels up. i really don't like thinking about getting a transfusion. too much stigma attached to it. my family will probably donate the blood to be used. that gives me a little bit of comfort.

i have felt pretty good today. being tired is my biggest problem. i have very little energy and feel wiped out. sleeping and eating doesn't seem to help very much. my appetite has been good. i have been snacking all day and i am ready for dinner right now!

well it is a new year. not much has changed for me. i got sick on new year's eve and didn't make it out. i have been strong the last few days and been able to go to work. i feel good until i start thinking of the word chemo. that word makes my stomach knot up and hits the gag reflex in the back of my throat. i am conditioned to be sick when i think about it. my next treatment is thursday. two more to go before surgery. they cannot be over soon enough. i feel like they let me get strong and then hit me again...

today i have to have a echo test on my heart to make sure the chemo isn't causing any problems with it. i had one of these tests before i started treatment so this is just a follow up.