well it is a new year. not much has changed for me. i got sick on new year's eve and didn't make it out. i have been strong the last few days and been able to go to work. i feel good until i start thinking of the word chemo. that word makes my stomach knot up and hits the gag reflex in the back of my throat. i am conditioned to be sick when i think about it. my next treatment is thursday. two more to go before surgery. they cannot be over soon enough. i feel like they let me get strong and then hit me again...

today i have to have a echo test on my heart to make sure the chemo isn't causing any problems with it. i had one of these tests before i started treatment so this is just a follow up.