weakness. that is my word of the day. i feel like i am physically in a hole with no energy to even try getting out. generally i sleep pretty decent at night and take several naps during the day. that sleep still doesn't produce enough energy to have any type of productivity. i eat when i can. my appetite comes in spurts and goes for long periods of time. my mind wants to eat big burgers and all that comes along, but my senses dry up and want nothing of it. thank god for no chemo this week. i'll have a little chance to strengthen up before the next treatment.

today i have really been thinking about my old lifestyle and friends. i used to live a fast paced, somewhat stressful, but carefree in essence life. now i feel like a 85 year old with price as right and jeopardy contestants for best friends. i know i will recover from this and get my old lifestyle back. i just wish things would speed up a little. i know i'll never be the same person as i was, hopefully i'll be a better person.

it has been a while since i thanked everyone for their support. those cards, calls, and emails really do mean a lot to megan and i. thank you all for thinking of us during this ordeal. we wish good things for you all and can't wait to celebrate life with you after this is all over.

well, i am going to try to catch a cat nap and pray that the weather clears up. the last 2 days have been cold and rainy. i stepped outside to get the mail and let the dog out. that is as far as i am going until i get stronger and the weather gets better.