i woke up today thinking that i would make it into the office, but i am just too weak. eating scattered meals consisting largely of liquid will make you weak. last night was the first real meal i had since the chemo on wednesday. the thing i hate most is that they let me recover just enough before the next treatment. right when i start feeling decent, they hit me again. even though i have 9 more treatments before this whole ordeal is over, i can see the end in sight.

last night was not very restful. i tossed and turned all night; waking up in a sweat at least 5 times. i had very vivid, weird dreams. this whole daylight savings time change has also messed with my sleep habits.

it is a beautiful day outside today. just a little chilly. i am ready for the sunshine of summer. i don't know, but i feel like it gives me a little hope to see the sunshine. the winter didn't give me much this year. i was largely confined to the house and depressed. no sleigh riding or snow boarding. i am really looking forward to going to the baseball park and watching the legends play this year. we made it out to 6 or 7 games last year. i hope to make it more this year. i would buy season tickets but i know that is just not practical for us this season. maybe next year...