i know it has been a while since my last post. i have not had chemo since then. my blood counts have still not been where they need to be. mainly i think it is my platelet count that is still too low. i have felt pretty good for the last week. i have just been really tired. i have been taking it easy and sleeping a lot. today my left ear is stopped up. i don't know what casued it to get that way. i hope it is not infection. my lungs have felt kind of sore the last few days. i have not been coughing up anything, so i am confident that i don't have an infection. it just worries me sometimes.

i am supposed to report to the hospital on monday for chemo. they have been pushing my treatments back because of my blood counts which is just stringing things out longer. in a way i'll be glad to go ahead and get it overwith asap. the biggest thing i hate about being in the hospital is not sleeping in my bed at home. i hate the hospital beds, along with the food and being hooked to an IV the entire stay.

anyway, today is derby day, so we'll be watching that later. i like Tapit and The Cliff's Edge but i wouldn't bet on them because i never pick the derby winner. megan has much better luck picking them.